Wednesday, June 20, 2012

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Saturday, May 5, 2012


Tiger's Eye


The full moon's light shined strongly into my fur. I could feel it welling up inside me, growing stronger and stronger. I shut my eyes to concentrate harder on what I was doing.

It happened. After one hundred years, I finally succeeded to build the power I needed for this change. My fur grew backwards and exposed my naked skin, I could feel the breezy wind brushing across my new skin. My fangs retracted at the same pace as my face. My claws changed, thinned into what looked like branch sticks while the nails retracted. I could feel my whole body shrink two times smaller than my original size. My bones twisted, crunched, changed. I shivered; there was no feeling of pain to the transformation, just uncomfortable sounds of cracking bones and the feeling of change that reigned my whole body.

When it stopped, I knew it was complete. I breathed and my throat released an unfamiliar sound. I lifted my tiny paw - hand - and squeezed the fingers together.

I was instantly curious with what I looked like, so I started moving toward the little pond up front. The paws and legs were much thinner, weaker than they really were. It felt weird to touch the muddy ground underneath my new skin: Even weirder, the knees on my back legs touched the ground the same time my hands and feet did. It was weird to be so unfamiliar with my new body, like I was a newborn cub that didn't know this world. But I did know this world. As I continued crawling to the water, I also realized that something was missing - my tail. I couldn't feel it anymore.

When I reached the waterside, its surface reflected my new face at me. The first emotion that came to mind was horror. I couldn't recognize any part of myself in this new face. The little mouth that had no fangs, the ears that were now placed on either side of my head instead of above. My nose shared the same color as the rest of my human face. My head had short and thin fur in black color. I was a little bit relieved when the reflection showed my yellow eyes - my original eye color. And then, I fought back the negative emotions. "This is what I wanted," I told myself. The ones before me did it to reach divinity. I did it to survive.

Once the bad feelings about my transformation were contained and taken away, a second emotion emerged: joy.

I did it. I had taken human form for the first time. Inside, I was still the tiger that I had always been, only now I was in a human's skin.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

A message to all the bullies out there

You think you're so great and so amazing, and that there are ppl meant for you to bully and push around? I'll say this: you're all nothing than pathetic losers!
You go around having fun, drinking, drugging and bullying others just because they're different!
If you can't have the opportunity to pick on others, you just go find one. And that makes you pathetic, because you simply can't live a day without any of that. The surge of being powerful, of being strong and arrogant. All that hatred and narrow mind makes you pathetic.

When someone you bullied dies, you may be happy, but you won't be able to bully him again. And this is exactly what I mean, you're all nothing but pathetic losers.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

This is weird

This feels weird. Why am I going around telling people that I'm virgin? It's not something you're supposed to flaunt.

Perhaps I've been single for so long that it drove me crazy.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

En dag av rutiner och planer

I en dag av rutiner och planer, jag flyr till den plats jag trivs bäst.
Min värld där jag slappnar, där jag sover. Där jag har ro.
Så länge som tiden går, löven blåser förbi och flyger mest.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Short-termed relationships

This is my life:
No matter what happens, whoever enters my life just slips away later. I've tried to hold onto them, but they just kept disappearing. It's not pessimism, it's a fact. I've had people who were very, very, very precious to me, and they disappeared too.. I've tried to find a replacement, and I got nowhere..
this is my life: a life of short relationships.

Might as well accept it..

Thursday, February 24, 2011

What a Hateful Life

No matter what I try, nothing I do will ever be good enough in any way. I try, I fail. I walk, I fall.
No matter how I embrace, nothing falls into my arms. I reach, I open, I grab, I slip.
For the days that follow, my sigh escapes like a breath of fire burning from hell.
For myself, I take no regard, until my legs come across and trip.
Perhaps my eyes should've opened more, that way to shield me from the upcoming winds
That way to help me avoid the wrath of the rains, the tremble of earth, the blaze of fire.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

My most cherished feelings.. my best memory.

I've never had many friends that meant anything to me. None to make me feel moved. None to make me feel pure joy and fulfillment in my heart. Nothing could move me. I was like a robot.
But many years ago, I changed.

I met my best friend. The best person I've ever met, ever known. And the only one I ever loved at all.

Almost everyday, I met him at school. His cheerful, athletic, and funny attitude gave me joy. His optimism, hopeful dreams for the future gave me hope. His lack of memory and irresponsibility made me furious, but yet kept me attached. Everything he ever did was to make me happy. Overtime, his personality, his endless optimism pierced through my rock heart.
If anyone ever gave me something more valuable than anything else, it was HIM. My best times were with him.

No matter what I did or said, he never walked away. I never wanted to let him go. I wanted us to stay this way... forever and ever.

But the tides changed the day he said he would be leaving after the spring semester. Disappointment, and shock and sadness nearly broke me down. Perhaps my feelings weren't pure enough, but that did not mean I never fell for him.

I tried to hang out with him again after finding out where he was working and that he was dating my teacher. But he went away again, and I lost him... again. Then, he left for a new life. My only request was to see him one last time before he set off, and he never fulfilled that wish. I let him walk away without asking for a souvenir. The years went by, I believed we wouldn't ever meet again... until I walked into him and his wife.

Before starting high school, I ran into him again. I never believed it would happen at any time, but it did. This time, I couldn't sense anything around him. And that was when I knew my love for him was over, my happiest time was past. And the future was reality. And though we bumped randomly again and again and again, I could only think of him as a friend.

No one has ever been as close to my heart as he had, and I believe no one ever will. Even if he has been dethroned, his place in my heart will be most special.

To the friend who will never see this.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

My last week.

This is my last week on practice. Hopefully I'll make it good, because it makes a good reference. For the past weeks, all I've done was help and observe. Not that I'm experienced in installing machines anyways.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Open your eyes

I am a being of the night. The time I was born, my eyes opened at dawn.
Sleeping hours bring forth peace, yet the awakening brings no calm.

I present now my kingdom of Night, to welcome those of the dark reside.
A magical journey I will find to let the quest brighten,
And then my beautiful moon will me enlighten...